rant · moment 13 of 20
Rehab Friendships and Selling Out for Dope
from Freedom and Fentanyl · #64
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5 minRay and Tim discuss how addicts can't keep their using friends after getting clean, joke about the units and value of heroin versus deli meat, and pivot into why Ray never got into drugs despite growing up around dealing and using.
- 28:14Rehab counselors tell addicts they'll stay friends with their using buddies, but those are just people in a house getting high together.
- 28:37Tim says addicts would sell each other out for drugs—anyone would betray anyone for a pound of heroin.
- 29:15He'd watch his own mother get beaten to death for two pounds of dope to move on the street.
- 29:34Tim compares drug quantities to deli meat orders: half pound of turkey, half pound of heroin, quarter pound of macaroni salad, pork rinds, a Marlboro.
- 30:06Ray was never a drug addict—he didn't like pot much because it hit him too hard and made him an idiot.
- 30:43Tim credits fear with keeping him alive during his drug use; he was afraid to mix drugs or take too many pills.
- 31:08He was a purist who wouldn't combine substances, unlike people who mix drugs casually.
- 31:23Tim discusses gay men and methamphetamine culture, describing the sexual element of smoking meth together.
- 31:58He never positioned himself to have the kind of fun that would come with drugs and casual sex.
- 32:28His drug stories from Long Island aren't particularly great compared to other people's stories.